The Begining of an Ending


Finally, finally, fucking finally!!!! It’s been in the works since April… We got Red, the last remaining dumbass holdout to finally sign the fucking divorce papers!

We have all, ok well not all, been working on getting these divorces done really since the beginning of June.  I had 100% of my part done by the beginning of July. Kitty finished her part and signed in August. Baby Doll had 100% of her part done in August. We have been on Red’s ass since July to take the fucking parenting class and sign the papers. He had done NOTHING! He had a weeks vacation in the beginning of September and both he and Kitty promised it would all get done…NOTHING! So what was the problem. Well he is a lazy good for nothing piece of shit…but that’s just for starters. He can’t stand us knowing that they are living paycheck to paycheck and don’t have the money. There are so many fucked up things about that last statement that I just don’t feel like going into. The upshot you might ask…well Baby Doll and I are going to have to pay for their ENTIRE divorce! That’s right kids…and that was only after threatening that if he didn’t get it done “nicely” now, we would take him to court! Normally this would only mildly irritate me…but right now, I am essentially paying so that he can be divorced and marry my ex before their bastard child is born. Ok…maybe I’m harsh. But Baby Doll and I had a wedding date picked out and now that he has dragged his feet for so long and continued to be one of the biggest douche bags on the face of the planet…it won’t happen…  So, yes, I’m paying to have my wedding day NOT happen.

Ok…I’m breathing…calming down…silver linings…

I get Baby Doll!!!!!! 🙂 🙂 🙂

He can’t hold anything over our heads any more. His last remaining power has been stripped. Now, if he messes with anything he lands in court!

I get Baby Doll!!! :):):)

The love of my life.
The mother of one of my children (if all goes well, not until next year).
A woman who knows how to treat a man like a man.
A woman to whom I can give all that I am.

And she is all mine! Mind, heart, body, and soul! She has given herself to me in more profound ways than most vanilla couples could ever understand. We are bonded in love, pain, commitment, devotion, servitude, dominance, submission… I never her asked her if I could own her…Baby Doll asked me if I would take her on. She told me that I owned her! To be given something not only of freewill but without being asked…such a gift.

I believe we have hatched an even better wedding plan than the original…New Orleans baby… Elope to a city that holds us both in her dark and mysterious heart. Perhaps a wedding in the City of the Dead… we shall see…

In the end…this isn’t over, it will never be over…but it will get better and it is always worth it!!


I have never been in a relationship where sex, touching, playing, loving, being physical was a marathon event. All of my previous experiences were essentially wham, bam, thank you ma’am, and not by my choice! I love to linger and touch and play. Well, Saturday was our day. We were both essentially naked all day (more or less). I couldn’t tell you if I ever stopped touching Baby Doll…it felt like one long luxurious lovemaking session.  The best part, was the teasing…I don’t think I came but twice all day.  There is nothing like being hard all day, on verge of explosion more times than I can remember, yet holding it until the end of the evening. Spending my day stroking the purring kitty, feeling her gush as I just graze her lips, without even trying… playing the little pearl like a musical instrument, knowing exactly how to move for Baby Doll to make a desired noise…now that is…power, excitement, intimacy, knowledge, love…I love that I know exactly how to make her wet, how to make her eyes roll back in her head, how to make her beg for more or beg for me to stop, how to pull her hair just right so she sucks with even more enthusiasm, the perfect timing of a deliberate smack across the face, a hand-deadening blow to the ass…we recently posted about playing..trial, tribulations, fun, etc. This kind of knowledge is not possible with playmates. I protect my babygirl, I love her, and by god I fuck her!!! Long, hard, intense, leg shaking, sweet producing, breath taking… it is the only way.

Since that day, Baby Doll has repeatedly asked me if we can do more…more! I love it. I ask her to be naked for me to show me some servitude, so I can admire her beautiful body and she offers me more! Yes, Baby Doll… if we are alone…you are naked! (or nearly ;)) Hopefully many more days like that to cum!


Today, so far, has been a very yummy day. We are without kids therefore morning naked yum yum time happened. But did we get out of bed? No. We talked, rolled around, laughed, played, touched, kissed and fondled some more. Only when empty stomachs couldn’t be ignored any longer did we drag ourselves out of bed to fill the void. I made a filling, cheesy delight which Master and I loved. We watched a little TV, did the dishes and ended up back in bed. Repeat of the morning. For some reason we’ve been holding off on fucking again despite a desperate growing ache gnawing at both of us. Master made lunch, we watched another show. This time He instructed me to take off my nightshirt and sit across from Him naked. He has not been able to keep His hands off me nor have I been able to keep mine away from Him. We’re like teenagers discovering each other’s bodies, immensely enjoying the teasing and flirting and thinking about what the night will actually bring, should we be able to wait that long. The time came for us to clean up and we showered. I received my GS, followed by our promises to Lead/follow to each other. I had asked Master if He would like me to get dolled up for Him tonight. He gently declined but I managed to let him know I really did want to do it and He said I could then. He had instructed me to stay naked for Him the rest of the night, but then added He wanted me to wear a slinky little thong for Him. While Master went to grab a few things for dinner, I did my hair and make up in my Baby Doll way.  A “little” goth, a “little” babygirl all mixed together. He came home and gave me an approving smile while He snapped my play collar on as well. I like the freedom and the naughtiness of wearing almost nothing and having Master’s hands spank my ass and stroke my nakedness. 
This has been exactly what we needed to reconnect. The sensual loving and giggles and privacy to be exactly who we are and who we need to be.
Thank you Master for such a wonderful day and I’m sure….and even more amazing night to come.


Having had a couple of days to process our recent adventures, Master mentioned that we aren’t evolved enough to be non-monogamous.  But I disagree. I think because we were able to go thru with it with little consequence, we are evolved. Neither of us got upset at the other or blamed each other for anything. Any jealousy or insecure moments were recognized immediately for just that and not projected onto anyone or anything else. We talked about whatever we needed to talk about without judgement or resentment of any kind. Of course, a lot of this comes from the fact that we started our relationship as poly from the very beginning. Even so, things could have gone horribly wrong but neither of us let it. We not only discussed the events but how they made us feel and why.
When Master made His final decision, it was after an exhausting and emotional day dealing with the exes and He told me quite sternly that it may not be fair but this isn’t a “fair” relationship. I am His subbie and He makes the rules.  I may plead my case, however, final decision is His. His tone was almost angry and I immediately asked Him if He was and if I had done something to anger Him. It was the tone of the day, that’s all. I was actually thinking the same thing and was a little relieved when we seemed to be on the same page. I just was not interested. Master is who I want.  There isn’t anything I really yearn for outside of our relationship or our sex life. Sex with women? Yes I’ve enjoyed it in the past. Will I get to a point that I absolutely have to have it again? Unsure but we are both willing to deal with it if that time comes. I am more than content with my Papa Bear in every way.  For someone who thought polyamory was the neatest concept since sliced bread, I even shock myself by saying that.

Time Needed


It is amazing how life can get in the way of true connection, even between the most intertwined of couples.  Between Baby Doll’s class for a month and a half, my school, kids, our little play adventure, obligations with the parentals, and now being under the weather for a few days…it seems like we haven’t had a good D/s night with lots of sex and cuddling and reconnection in a while. We are still not 100% health wise, and we still have the kids, but we are both crawling out of our skin for each other. There will definitely be some naked yum yum time tonight. ..probably more of an appetizer with the rest of the meal to come tomorrow.
Baby Doll finally got her loan officer license the other day and has her first face to face client meeting on Friday! Having just worked the phones she has already brought in a half million dollars in business in just 2 weeks! So proud of her!
Needless to say, we will be celebrating tomorrow! And for damn sure I will be treating her like my very own oreo! And if she’s a VERY good babygirl she will get the beating I know she desires as well! I love this life.
I love this life with my Baby Doll!
My humblest gratitude to the powers that be in the Universe that you have brought me this woman with whom I get to share my life.